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I am a married woman from 2 years. Before marriage my husband asks me that he love me and purpose for marriage, and then we start ill legal relations. 6 years we spend together without marriage. During that 4 time I got pregnancy and he force me for miscarriage. I always ask him for marriage and leave such bad habits, I felt sham on my self, I try to suicide but failed I was helpless. I make lot of Prays to Allah that he agrees for married. I want a chance to spend neat and clean life according to Islam.
Now we are married after so many force and request. he ask me that ok we get married but promise me that you never ask to his parents about this marriage. He is trying to get marriage with a girl with his parent’s desire. He wants to keep in secret our marriage for whole life. He full fills my all needs. We are in Omman and his family is in Pakistan. He asks me that his second wife is staying Pakistan with his parents. If I disclosed our marriage he will divorced me.
Now I just want to save my married life or want to spend all my life for God. Now I full fill all the God’s Rules and want to be God Muslim. This life is God Gift, Allah give me a chance to For Forgiveness.
Now what can I do for forgiveness and is it necessary to full fill the promise which i made with my husband.