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I’m 24 years, im married (in July 2006) and got a baby of 3 months.

I think I get a psychological problem and I really need a help for that.

I get this problem since 3 months.

In fact since my childhood I loved my aunt’s son (she is my father’s sister).

She gets 3 sons and he is the 2^nd boy.

In fact since my childhood a got lot of affection for him (he lived in India and me in France) and after this affection was grown up in love after the years. I really wanted to marry him and himself also.

But problem was in my childhood my grand-mother and others relatives (like this aunt and her husband) told “Shaheen will marry Aslam”. He is the 1^st son. I never took this matter seriously during my life until some years before my Wedding

After many problems I got married to Aslam (the 1^st son). Its was very very difficult for me, but finally I accepted the decision of my parents.

Nowadays I’m very happy with him and I’m living in London.

His brother (the 2^nd) got married in july 2007, one year after my wedding.

He too got a daughter of 8 months.

But Imam Jee, sometimes, im thinking to my past and suddenly I get stressed, I feel angry, I’m crying, without no reason I shout on my husband, I feel jealous, I broke some dishes and then I feel not happy at all.

My husband know the relation I get with his brother but I think he is not very serious about that, I mean past is past, that’s his opinion.

When I’m seeing his brother, I feel very very sad inside of me, I’m thinking what I did of my Life.

Well, I’m always trying to be happy and to forget this thing. When I saw him with his wife, I feel something wrong in myself, like to be jealous, but Imam jee I don’t want to get this feeling. But her wife is a gossip and I really don’t like that at all. She thought that she knows everything, that she is the eldest daughter in law, contrary to me. In fact she wants always to get reason for any matter. And it get me in tension.

I think if she didn’t get this character, I think I will be fine, really. In fact his brother shows too much affection to her wife in front of me, and it makes me uncomfortable.

Now Imam Jee, I want to know if my feelings and my behaviour towards my husband is a sin, I mean if I’m disobeying to my husband. Because of my crisis my husband is worried about me. Since August 2008 I’m living in France and my husband in Germany (because of his work). Soon we will be together, INSHA’ALLH. Because I noticed that since he is far away from me, I get more stressed and thinking too much.

What can I do for that?

Is it possible to learn some duas for that or anything else.

Thanks for your response.

Wassalam.